YOU...

Until this moment I still wonder,
Why does my heart fall for you?
Even though I know it is wrong,
Even if little by little,
I keep on falling deeply…

I thought I can just ignore it,
But there is something about you,
That keeps me magnetized into you,
And I feel so right whenever you’re around
But I’m confused if I should keep this up…

Whenever I feel lonely,
You stay around and I feel alright
I just thought you’re just a mere friend,
But then I was wrong,
It is because my feeling is more than that …

You simply mesmerize me,
You simply make my heart skip a beat,
You always put a smile on my face
And brighten my gloomy days,
And I think you’re simply amazing…

I don’t know if I can keep on pretending,
And hiding what I feel inside,
But I know you feel it, you can see it,
And somehow I let you feel my love,
By expressing it on my own subtle ways…

The Senseless Killings of 57 people in Maguindanao...

i was so shocked about this Maguindanao massacre.. I really can't believe that some people are willing to kill A LOT of people just for the sake of politics.. i can't believe how brutal and how low life those who commits this unspeakable crime!! What does our government do about it?? Are they going to do an full force action.. yes.. the alleged suspect Mayor Ampatuan Jr. was already in custody but it is not enough.. those men he contracted to these inhuman brutality should be all caught.. and as I heard the one who lead this massacre is a police officer?! people are getting worst... worst than wild animals.. i really cannot believe this.. let's say politics is a very, very complicated thing, but I cannot believe that someone will go beyond human imagination.. to massacre 57 people, and some say that the 22 females on that massacre was even raped.. damn.. and I saw the pictures of the victims.. I get weak when I saw that.. that's too much, unspeakable human slaughtering... So what does our government gonna do about this?? Madam President, please, do something right for this victims, and don't be bias.. people are dying because of politics.. people are getting killed because of politics.. :|

These Feelings

Is it significant to contain these feelings inside of me?
This kind of feeling that I wasn’t sure about
It is overwhelming and empowering,
And yet, it scares me and I withhold it within
Cause these feelings I had, was never meant to be with me…

It made me think about a lot of things,
And how would my heart able to handle it
I wasn’t prepared for this,
I never knew about it, it just hit me
Is it something I should pursue or just hold back?

My heart is not sure about this,
I was afraid to try again,
Because somebody broke my heart before,
That’s why I think twice before making a move,
But I realize, that these feelings aren’t planned at all

These feelings are like rushing winds,
It did blow me away, & I simply can’t turn away
Cause no matter direction I take, it would just follow me
It would reside with me, stay with me,
And eventually, it will keep on blowing my mind away

But I can’t hide it forever I guess
But I can’t show it either, cause its wrong
So I am torn on what to do
These feelings is hard to suppress or to keep
But… that’s the only choice I have… for now…

HIDING...

To keep inside whom you really are,
To keep distance from the things that would hurt you,
To keep away from other people,
To reside within yourself
You’re hiding your true self…

Not able to speak what you really want to say,
Not able to fight when you have to,
Not able to shout what’s really hurting you
Not able to pour on what’s on your heart
You’re pretending that you’re okay…

You’re like a flightless bird, not able to fly,
Like a crippled person who can’t walk,
Like the blind who had lost his sight
Like the deaf who can’t hear the sound
And like the mute who can’t speak…

The deepest things you keep inside,
Its just keep inside because you can’t speak,
It’s like you’re lost the will to be free
To obtain that freedom that you deserve
To be locked and chained away…

When will you learn to fight for your own?
To speak what you had to say and not to be afraid,
Until when you are chain in your own fears,
And lock in your own shadow,
Will time able to speak for it? I cannot say…

Hope and Hesitation in Love...

My heart was left behind before,
By someone whom I thought had really love me,
But sadly, didn’t love that much
And left me hanging and wondering
So my heart was frozen…

As of this moment, I’m hesitant about love,
But I didn’t close the possibility for it,
I’m still hoping that I could love again
And yet I’m still scared to try again
Still afraid to gave my heart away…

My heart was too fragile this time,
Too fragile to be broken again
And that’s why I hesitate that much
Even if someone come on knocking in
I don’t want to let them come into my heart

But eventually, I cannot run from love forever
Nor hide from it; it will keep on following me,
Cause love knows no boundaries or time
And is not a plan that I can just take in
Because love is unpredictable and unstoppable

I don’t want to lose hope on love
And yet I’m still in hesitation,
Maybe it’s only a matter of time
Before I can finally say that I found love
Without me hesitating, just hoping for it…

REGRET...

If there are some regrets in my life,
It is when I loved too much before,
I love too much that I was taken for granted
I gave too much that ___ abused me…
And it keeps on repeating again and again

I regret that I love that much…
That I didn’t leave something for myself…
And every time I get hurt,
I just forgive as always that I do…
And didn’t say a word…

They say when you love,
You shouldn’t have any regrets,
But that wasn’t always the case
We do regret things that we do or not do…
Because it’s either we’re too much or we lack much

Sometimes we say we don’t regret anything,
But deep inside, we know that we do…
It’s just we keep that fact within us
It is because we’re not ready to face the truth…
That even if we regret, it is too late for that…

We shouldn’t live our lives in regret,
We do what we can; we regret it later on,
But don’t let it swallow your own pride
At least we did what we should do
And that’s something, we shouldn’t regret…

Two Souls...

Two souls chained...
Two souls trying to break free...
Two souls that wants a way out...
Two souls that needs love
two souls that lost their way...

Its so ironic to see that things isn’t getting better
life was damn unfair for this 2 souls
it seems its not easy to be entangled to things...
Things that are so complicated,
you just wish had never happened..

Caught between situations that is too complicated
that every step you make,
its either getting worse or getting better..
Eventually those two souls are on that...
And its getting harder and harder...

And what to do?? They just ran to each other
trying to uplift each others' confidence
even though they both know...
That deep inside, they're hurting so much
and it leads to more complicated situations...

If they just learn how to really understand each other,
then maybe that confusion between them subsides
and they will see clearly,
what it means to be each others' strength..
And those two souls can be REAL to themselves...

Reality would hurt so much...
But I'd rather face that,
than pretending/hiding all along...
What’s the truth behind those things...?
And what's the reality between those two...