Do you know I almost slash my wrist to death? Yes. I attempted suicide many times before. Reason?? Love life. Trauma. Acceptance. If for you it is simple, for me it is not. I am the type of person who tends to be too emotional and reckless. First of all, the acceptance, I'm often bullied since I was in elementary and high school. I don't know why some people choose to bully others. They hurt those they think had a low self-esteem than themselves, they feel good about themselves when they bully others. It's kinda crazy. I fight back but I am outnumbered. Still, I manage to punch them whenever I have a chance to do so. I don't like being bullied, it's traumatizing, and it leaves a mark within my heart.
Suicide was not an answer to a problem. But it would only worsens things. But I don't know that before, and many times i did attempt it. But a part of me is saying I shouldn't. I got scars from the slashes, but it wasn't visible anymore. When you're in the puberty stage, your emotions tends to go out of control. Acceptance was a big factor during that stage. And rejection often happens. I think it's part of growing up. When it comes to love life, I am really letting it into my system. That's why I am so affected when my heart breaks. And so i do some drastic things.
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