and then it happens... :|

I know. it's a little crazy as of this moment. I don't know what to say or do. How am i suppose to react to these feelings. How am i going to cope with all of this, knowing the fact that i cannot do anything. I'm just confused, this heart of mine that i wanted to give a chance. But i am afraid to love again. And things are in the way. I want to try again but taking chances is like standing in the edge of the cliff and you are inches away from falling down into nothingness. Knowing the fact that she loves me, it hurts me, cause i can't do anything. I can't really tell her that it's hurting me cause she might stay away and i don't want her to do that. I cared a lot for her, but I didn't show it, cause i'm scared, scared of being chased away by my fears. And every time i feel that she's hurting, it hurts me more, but i didn't show it at all. I am comfortable talking to her but when she get upset with me, my world falls apart. She don't know anything about what i really feel inside. And what she is to me. And i think she won't believe me when i say that i did love her before, but i stopped myself cause i was not so sure and things are too complicated. I am blinded by my own pains, and because of that, i didn't feel her heart. She is easy to love, but i don't know how i am supposed to say to her. And she just knew, i don't want her to get hurt because of me. :|