and so what if I am a WALLFLOWER?!

Hindi ako natutuwa, naiirita ako. it seems like i have to be so careful with my actions all the time, yes, i am always careful pero ung tipong parang kinokontrol ako, BULLSHIT lang. Ayaw nga ng drama at kung ano-ano pa pero ung feeling na pinaparamdam naman sa akin ang nagttrigger na maging ganun ako. Ayoko ng tnetesting ako for something trivial like that. If you wanna know me better, then try to understand that I am not the type na tipong I should do on your bidding. Di naman ako robot para kontrolin diba. I have feelings, nasasaktan, nalulungkot, umiiyak at nagagalit. NO ONE can tell me what I should feel. yes, kailangan magkontrol, I know that fact. But then emotions aren't always controlled. If you cannot cope up with my deepness, you can go and leave. I am not soliciting anyone's respect or approval. If you like me, its okay, but if not, it's up to you. Don't try so hard to FIT IN any situation, place, group of people cause each of us was BORN to STAND OUT. BEAR THAT IN MIND. i am not the type who runs after people if they choose to leave me. I see, I feel, I observe, I don't speak but I understand. I have a purpose in life, why I am existing in this world. Everyone has a purpose anyway. And so what if I am a wallflower? I choose my fights, I don't go head on and risk everything just for the sake of an argument. PLAYING SAFE? maybe if that's what you think. Pero alam ko kung ano magiging consequences kapag padalos-dalos ako. i think before I act. I don't overrun people's feelings.

And I don't try to understand everything i see and feel. There are things that I have to accept as they are. And if you cannot accept me, go ahead. Hinding hindi kita pipiliting unawain ako. Why would I even do that? You have a CHOICE. to STAY OR TO GO. It's absolutely up to you. Yun lang yun. Ayoko nang makipagtalo pa or mag explain ng pagkahaba-haba tapos di naman ako papakinggan. I won't waste my energy to those things.